Phases of Phrases

I was just going through the archives of my blog, reviewing the last two years and what I've recorded. I was admittedly a bit shocked to find how, to put it bluntly, crazy I sound. Some of the posts I revisited made me say, "Yikes" on the inside.

There was a lot going on. Leaving a place I didn't want to leave (Los Angeles), moving to a place I didn't want to move to (New Hampshire), feeling under fire for all the Prop 8 crap, facing my fears and starting the process of the screenplay, figuring out what God really sees in me, and really, accepting but living through the pain of a life change, gritting my teeth as I sacrificed things of the moment for the investment of our future. It was hard. And I was angry.

So I ranted. I said some stupid things. I said some intelligent things. I changed my mind since then on how I view different issues, different principles. ( But Judd Apatow will always be a nimrod and I'll always be searching for the perfect potluck.)

Within this blog, these past three years, I've found my voice, my sense of humor, and a couple of vertebrae that were missing from my backbone. I started out stuck in my mother-in-law's basement and ended up on the other side of the world several times since.

I've risked looking like a "crazy Christian" in my posts about God and standards and testimony. It wouldn't be that difficult either to call me "dramatic". I'm a hopeless romantic. I hate it when people are upset with me. I've laughed and cried within these posts. I've made fun of myself, been hard on myself, and a day later, figured out how amazing I can be at cooking a new recipe or by some small experience, catch a glimpse of how divine my potential really is.

On the surface it would be easy to think that I'm positively certifiable. Most of you have been on this wild ride of mine all over the face of the earth since the very beginning. You've been a part of my growth, my clarity, my childishness and vulnerability. At this point, I can't believe the strides I've made, especially in the last eight months. How different it all is now!

Now we've reached Seattle, the "ending up" place after this long affair. We're happy and glad. But it's just the beginning really. All this time and all these posts were just the gearing up phase and the preparation for the jumping off point. We've got a purpose and it's no coincidence we're in Seattle.

Won't you join me on my new adventures in a new place? There's so much more to discover!
We're here now.